The Island

I would have thought that being stranded in a location with people that I was not close to would have been the woe of my vacation. Ironic that it was not. Makes me kind of regret my current behavior towards them. Makes me have less respect for some others.

It goes to show that knowing and doing stuff with people for a long time, years now does not necessarily mean that they are good friends. I have learned a little bit more about the people that went along for the trip. I guess it was educational and worthy contribution to my knowledge.

Nosiness

So what is it that makes people so bloody curious about other people or things that has nothing to do with them? Why do they so desperately need to find out about others when it has no relations to them whatsoever?

I tell you the truth; snooping around behind my back only make things worse for yourself. Not only do I know that you are doing it, but the fact that you still want to find out that badly that you have to resort to such pathetic methods really shows a thing or two about yourself. If you know that I would not tell you, why still pursue it? You, especially a person of your age and wisdom/experience, if there was any, would be able to understand reasons for me not wanting to tell you anything. This just further strengthens my stand in not wanting to tell you. This just proves all the more reason not to trust you. Especially with past experiences where it was none of your business anyway.

If you ever get judgmental and critical about me again on how I live my life and handle my relationships, you can expect a retaliation. I choose to be silent and still because I believe in giving people opportunities to back off.

When you criticize me, I will respond in kind. You will have to ask yourself, whether you have more wrongs of me than I do of you. Let us see if you were cautious to cover your own flaws while looking at others'.

I'm Special!

Ever encounter people who just have to be better than everybody else? They just have to be better than everyone else and has to show it. If they fail to do so, they will not even bother wanting to be seen. At any given place and time they will always want something extra to stand out among the rest. They have to display some sort of superiority over the rest.

You know like how children always boast about how they are better than their peers. "My mom says I'm special!" Guess these people try hard to compensate for other things.

What makes it even 'better' is that they try hard to be noticed and seen, while putting on some sort of fake humility. They try to ooze their shit out while being as subtle as possible. 'No la, I'm not rich.' 'No la, I'm not that good.'

These people will only impress like minded people. People who know better would not even give a second thought about their 'superiority' or 'specialness'.

Nothing Much To Say

Is it because you just do not know much to talk about? For some people who claim they read books as if they are very learned, I am amused that their blogs are full of insubstantial articles. Even when they post comments on other blogs, they hardly relate to the topic at hand.

Come to think about it, I probably have mentioned this before. Such a waste of internet space.

Overused Cliche Bullshit

Why do people bother using cliche that are overfckenused to make themselves sound wise and all smart and shit? As if that is not laughable enough, they themselves do not practice what they preach.

I saw a particular person posting a comment in one of my bro's blog. Perhaps she was trying to show that she means well despite what she did to him. Despite how she played with his feelings. Despite how she dumped him in such a pathetic way, if there even was one. Actually all I could remember was that she all of a sudden got emo and avoided him without so much of any word of wanting to break up with him for whatever reason. She kept giving lame ass reasons to not see him when he was trying to talk to her in attempts to find out what was going on. Even her parents were clueless as what the fuck was going on. The next thing we know she was already seeing someone else before a proper closure and resolve.

This is what she wrote as a comment to his blog. Let me break it down.
1. Lessons in life.
- she's the one to talk...

2. We might not always make the smartest choices but when we make mistakes we learn from them.
- she cannot possibly be serious when saying this after what she did to him, unless of course she was intending on rubbing it in his face

3. that's the part that matters most and thus no regrets.
- crushing a man's heart and telling that in his face.

4. as another year passes by we just get wiser.
- bwahaha... how original, almost had me there. no really.

5. so i wish you the best for the upcoming year. for someone like you i’d say the best is yet to come.
- you would know wouldn't you!? oh wise person who is so experienced in life...

A broken heart as much as people want it to be healed, it will never be the same again being left a scar there to remind us of what happened. It takes a lot for a person to be sincerely okay with the person that broke their heart; that itself is very very rare. Most people pretend and act fine but they never truly are.

Hideous Soul

You know how people who are average looking and not physically attractive? Some of them have beautiful souls. Their personalities are lovely. They are always great to interact with. Some of them have souls so wonderful that it radiates through their physical appearance giving them this unexplained attraction. This unexplainable beauty. The beauty of them being a person as a whole.

The opposite occurs as well. People who look good physically but their souls are rotten to the core. Their souls have decayed and has a stench that permeates all over themselves revealing their true nature which overshadows their physical beauty.

Most people are blind. Often fooled by their physical behaviors. Fooled by their innocent looks and charms. Just like corpses hidden anywhere, the stench will eventually escape and be picked up by everyone. Some have more keen senses than others. It is only a matter of time before you are found out.

Those of you who are 'being' nice and holy. You know who you are. I know who you are. God knows who you are. I digress from you. False prophet and prostitute. It is in my true nature to encourage you to continue being yourselves to the point of being beyond redemption. Unfortunately the sun shines and the rain falls on both righteous and evil alike.

Aww so sweet... like Diabetes

Blogs that are initially to share about their life experiences, daily adventures and useful information to readers are great. It just gets fucked up when two blogs turn into a love shrine professing each other's feelings.

Congratulations on losing a bulk of readers who do not give a shit about what your feelings are about for the other. Might as well rename the blog, and its objectives. Expression of appreciation for one another could be done in better and tasteful ways. Rather than just typing things out for all to see. The only people that would seem like they enjoy reading those is only each other. And perhaps their 'supportive friends' saying cliche stuff like 'aww so sweet' or well wishes of the two being happy together.

It has become a saturated gunk of syrup. Like what candies are based off. And you know who loves those kind of things? Kids. Kids love candy. However too much sweet stuff will make you sick and over time if the intake is not controlled, would lead to serious health problems.

For the love of fuck, go make a dedicated blog or a website that is dedicated entirely to that special someone and preserve your current blogs' true purposes and ideals.

I Am Definitely Missing Something

I still do not get it. How can people be so shameless in being prejudiced towards certain people while they can be so nice to others?

Good thing going on? Do not expect me to be happy when what was left was a trail of chaos and sorrow that leads to the current scenario of new found 'happiness'. The house is ignorant. Blind. Perhaps they are not. Perhaps they knew all along what was happening and banded together to achieve a common goal which is filled with prejudice. I guess it is true when it says that the church is for sinners. Sinners who are remorseless as to how they live and behave. Sinners who think that they are above other people. Sinners who have never changed since they labeled themselves believers. In fact some of them have become worse after claiming to believe.

What I learnt today, is to say to people like these; God bless you.

Its Good to be Back & Bad

So I was thinking, doing the right thing, being the nice guy really has no gains. The only thing I gain is more shit from people who think that I am harmless just because I chose not to do anything.

Well those days are gone. I am going back to my old self. I will hold grudges. I will make plans for revenge. I will succeed. So whoever of you reading, have problems with me, do make it known so I know who you are, and perhaps one day we can settle our problems.

Whenever I smile now you will have to wonder if I am sincerely being nice, or am I mocking you, or even having devious thoughts in my head.

Shall we dance?

Waaaaambulance...

I think I am running out of titles for my postings... perhaps in the future I will just not bother with any.

Oh well, return of the fire. Time has not change how I hate people who say they are poor but obviously they are not. Hell they do not even act poor. Some people talk about injustice? To them justice is merely not getting what they want. Not getting their way. Even in trivial matters. Like not being able to buy some mofokking expensive shit that they would only use once or twice. They do not even know what real injustice is.

However, I am glad that you at least realize it is unfair that 'bad people get away with things'. Welcome to the world. Take a look around. Bad people will get away with things. Bad and smart people will always get away with things. Only in this lifetime anyway. If you think that these bad people should be punished for every wrong they have done, the same would apply to yourself for every little bad thing you have done. The same to myself, for every wrong thing that I have ever done. Does that sound fair enough?

Wisdom is a really funny thing. The moment you try to show it off, it is gone. Nobody can boast about being humble. I digress looking at you. Looking at how you play along. How you play people. An example of injustice would be why people were against B going out with A, but not when C goes out with A. Especially when B did nothing wrong to A. Now B has to suffer the consequences of being mislabeled as the bad person while A is free to do anybody. C of course would not know or care as long as C is with A at the moment. Can we expect a village bicycle in the making?

I Thought Girls...

were the only ones who would more likely be the ones who idolized their own looks. Upon doing so feel very proud of their looks and ridicule others who are not as 'beautiful' as them. When that is the only thing that they have. Brains? What brains? They talk before their brains (if any) gets to process. If it processes.

Well... not really talking about the female gender this time around, rather I am amused that there are guys who are like this as well. They work out, and get into shape. They write about girls being attracted to them but wished to be left alone because they have drama in their lives. I actually got bored talking about them.

Am I Forsaken?

So the few weeks of little fuck ups have snowballed into a huge one and it impacted this week. From work to even game time. What the hell is going on? It feels as if God has forsaken me. As if punishing me by just abandoning me to the cruelties of life for whatever I did to piss Him off.

I not recall going out of my way to create havoc or maliciously started any dispute with anybody over these past weeks. Oh well, for those haters out there I am sure it is good news to them.

Honestly...

Some people need to learn how to fucking spell right. Especially those that claim to aspire to be writers. Preemptively purchasing the 'tools' which is unnecessarily needed to be one. They also need to get their facts and statements right, preferably with compelling reasons and evidence. Especially when it comes to claiming the things God 'spoke' to them.

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Now to this one person who may still be reading my blog, insulting me when I have nothing to do with him/her. You know who you are. Posting your remarks about me in other people's blogs. If you have that much of problems with me. I suggest that you take it up with me personally. Face to face. If you want, I can visit you at your house. I can visit you at your school. Just tell me when and where. If you are not just all words behind the monitor. Set the date and time. You know what? I even welcome you to go tell your parents that some psycho is looking for you, I would like to talk to them as well.

If you have problems with me, take it up with me personally. If you are as big as your talk then you will definitely have nothing to fear. So how about it?

Or are you going to cover your own ass and claim that you were not talking about me? Your grammar sucks so bad that it is questionable as to what you actually do in school because you seem to fail in reading comprehension as well. Perhaps that might be influenced by blind-biasness especially when you are as informed as a brick.

lolrus in a roflcopter

So I was grinning and trying to stop myself from laughing 0h so loud at the office when I came across an article, oh sorry, two articles that confirmed my predictions ever so nicely. Give me a moment to just... indulge this in list form.

I saw it coming a mile away.
It was only a matter of time.
I was wondering how long it will take for the next.
I was wondering who was going to be next.
I wonder how long it will take this time.

of course after that it will lead too... I wonder who is next!?

That happens to be the 'cycle'.
Actually it just came to my sense that it is pretty obvious by now among the people where they appear. Oh well, guess it was not really meant to be hidden. Still entertaining though!

Oh people claim that they have changed over the years. Who are you bullshitting? I was told to give a benefit of a doubt. Again I ask, who are you bullshitting? I am sure once again you are thinking that who am I to say a person's behavior/personality. Well I also believed I have told a few people that, people who want attention will definitely not want to hide it. As simple or redundant that phrase sounds, it holds more meaning than you think. As simple as it sounds, it is also very true. If you knew me better, you would know I only talk about what has been exposed/revealed to me. Whether they are intentionally revealed is none of my concern. Fact is that it is revealed to me and therefore made known to me. I do not go around talking about other people whom I know nothing of or even give a shit about.

So anyways yeah, looking at the history, it repeated itself quite a fair bit and I did give them benefits of doubt, over and over again. Sorry to say that nothing much really changed, except maybe the age of consent? Haha? (eventually). I can say there has been 'progress' with the selections over the years. It is like some ladder thing, or some kind of game where the player proceeds so on and so forth to the next level dealing with a more difficult boss.

It is so amazing how people can reveal so much about themselves with not so much as of a single word. Maybe its just me, maybe I am proficient in reading people but hey, if you all cannot see it as well. Suck to be you!

Who Am I Kidding?

Hahaha as if I would really block this site from people reading. A pit of spikes is there. You do not question why it is there, it is already there. But what you can do is not go leaning over into it and giving yourself a high probability of falling into it impaling yourself.

For those who already are victims, I just have this to say... Bad Luck. Sure you can curse me all you want, convincing yourselves of what bad will happen to me in the future and the like. Chances are I have already experienced a fair number of shit and I dare say more than any of you lil' kiddies will in your protected and jaded lives. Just because it is not mentioned does not mean it is not there. Just because you do not see it, does not mean it is not there.

Anyways back to business as usual. Happy reading and hating!

This feels like a tug of war thing. People just do not understand that if they did not care about what I write and if I mean next to nothing to them, why bother spending their precious time writing remarks about me? Why bother taking time out of their busy and productive lives to even read this blog and actually give their worthless 2 cents? You know what you should do? Since you are so knowledgeable and opinionated, why not write stuff about me on your blogs? Why not tell the whole world what kind of person I am? Or am I not worth the space? You'd talk about me in other people's comments and shoutbox though... What a strange behavior.

"I don't know jack shit about him! But he sounds like whiny bitch to me! Yeah he is a whiny bitch! That is all that I think I know about him durrrrhurhur..."

Oh by the way, the next time you call somebody gay, make sure they are in fact homosexual. Else you will be insulting homosexual people as using that term in a derogatory manner. Unless of course you have issues with homosexual people.

Could It Be? Other Trolls Out There?

Hey you. Yes you the one reading this blog. You have problems with me? Well then fuck off. Nobody invited you here. You want to talk shit about me? Leave your comments so I know who you are. You pass judgment on strangers whom you do not know. Like I said before, you think just because you are safe behind your monitors you can be all brave and talk about other people especially when your knowledge is nothing in comparison. Stay in school. Do as your parents tell you. Get straight A's. Go become a doctor/lawyer/engineer/scientist/accountant whatever cookie cutter template you choose. Be like everybody else. Whatever it is go lead your own lives and do not even try to talk as if you are so wise as to blaspheme others. Most of you do not even have justifiable or compelling facts or even reasons. You just say "oh he's like that." Why? "oh he's just like that."

It is funny that people think they can analyze and have others all figured out especially when those people have no relation or connection whatsoever. Go on then, keep saying stuff about me. Let the blind lead the blind. Remember what you say and do portrays who you are. As for me? This is who I am. I make my statements after it _directly_ affects me. After I put much considerable amount of thought into it. I do not just run my mouth off like most of you at face value. If people would just bother trying to read carefully what is written they would not be such dumbasses as they currently are. Let me tell you all _again_. This is my personal blog where I write all that bad things about other people and experiences I have. Of course if you really knew me, you would also know I am not one to just say shit without thinking. Unlike those of you think otherwise. Often in my articles I repeat that if you do not like it, then do not bother reading. Is it so difficult? I do not need your attention. In fact, I would prefer to be unknown if I could.

Come to think of it, screw you. Think whatever you want to think. Be the way you are. I would not touch shit in real life anyway. Oh and thanks for dropping by and actually reading my blog! Despite you not liking me and such, you still read my blog and even talk about me. Very amusing.

E-mail Retards

I have no idea if its a mental impediment where people just cannot keep the addresses in their email updated. I have people that I no longer associate myself with, emailing me inviting me to join friendster and all those other shits. I especially hate the fucking 'Who Remembers Me' fuck. Despite not responding to those emails, they keep spamming you in the future. I have already gave these people a piece of my mind in the past, which stopped most of them thankfully and also hopefully that they no longer think I am in good terms with them. For the rest, I am waiting until the day when my tolerance is pretty low to explode in their faces. It is even better when they cannot even find the words to respond.

Attention Whores

Get a kick of leaving your mark in as many places as you can?
Feel the need to divert attention from other people so that they will focus on you? If there was something worth focusing their attention on, I am sure they would have done so in the first place, but if you have to go to the extend to really try hard, you really fail at life. Especially those that try so hard to fit in with a group. I wonder what happens to those people when they are suddenly left alone, abandoned. On second thought maybe I should not, I am probably giving them too much attention already. The only attention I would like to give them is when misfortune falls on them. I will be laughing, telling other people about it and laughing more, because I know there _is_ a God, and He let it happen.

I Do Not Know You

Hi, my circle of friends just got smaller!
Everybody is off my list until proven qualified. Nobody exempted. Sure I may lose friends; However I do not need treacherous scums that pretend to be nice to me and do shit behind my back. Even people that I used to think were my friends whom I thought I knew for years after what I have done for them over the years.

I blame nobody but myself, for being so trusting for being used like a tool. Oh well the world still spins! Time to move on!

Eat the Chili. Feel the BURN!

I love how the internet enables people to be brave enough to post things that they truly feel. Thinking that since nobody knows them or their whereabouts they can just say whatever they want to say. However in reality they would not even dare think of doing such a thing to anyone's face. Some even believe that with their current position and since nothing has happened to them, they can go all out in saying whatever they feel like saying about others.

I am not sure how many readers actually read this blog, but it was never meant to be publicized. So to those who stumble upon this site and get offended. BLOW ME! I already said this before at the launch of this blog. If you cannot handle what I have got to say, fuck off. Being so predictable as to responding in your own space trying to prove something, trying to make a statement to all your friends in hopes that they will side you and comfort you and support you without them knowing what it is that actually went on is laughable. Disgraceful. Hey if those people out there want to address me in their sites, wanting to talk shit about me, please refer to me by my name. Also link my websites. I want everybody to know who you are talking about. I want them to know who you are referring to. I want them to know the entire 'truth'. That way those who actually do know me will be able to see me in a different light. I do not really care if its a bad impression but hey at least I become known. Maybe even disliked. Then I can distinguish better who are the fakes, who are the hypocrites, who are the cowards.

These people think they are safe in my absence. Especially in church. The reason why I do not go to the church which I once called my own, for more than 20 years, in fact my entire life, is because of such people. They imply that they are better than me through their actions, as if they are innocent while attempting to hide their true devious selves. Some of these newcomers made their way there, won over the other members into thinking that they are all that. I applaud you. You can stay in the church, after what you have contributed to it in making it the way it is today. I do not want it anymore. The only regret I have is abandoning some of my friends which I grew up with. I left the place so that you people can be happy in doing whatever the hell want to do without much 'problem'. That problem namely me. The house of God with these kind of people. Makes me ashamed of congregating with you all. Sure you may say I am slandering, sure you may say that I know nothing. However if this is what has been projected for me to perceive, all of you are not innocent either. You will all be responsible for our own actions as I for mine. My own conscience is clear of what has happened. God is with me in all this as He continues to bless me despite me not going to church to see your faces. Whereas most of you have no real issues in your lives, so you are just dramatizing up your lives thinking your trivial issues are life changing. Sheltered by your parents in your homes. You have no idea what the world outside is like because you just do as you are told and are promised a safe future.

Oh, maybe this is called a preemptive strike, or a trap set up just for the fun of it. Why don't you go crying to your mother telling her what I said here? Maybe she can tell me to leave the country and not bother you and your family anymore? Of course this is assuming if you're reading. Assuming that you know well enough that this blog contains purely spite and malice, with a warning that it contains offensive material. Nobody made you read this, you came here willingly. This blog was never welcomed for anybody to read, they read at their own discretion. If I wanted to be an attention whore wanting to attract people with the use of criticisms, I would have made it more open, I would have promoted it. So yeah please continue to run your mouth off without actually thinking.

You should thank God that I restrain myself from doing unchristianly acts and that I am in fact a person of honor and loyalty. Else who knows what could happen? If you want to start something with me, let it be known and make sure you finish it. If you are going to talk shit about me, make sure you get the facts right. Make sure you know for certain what you say is truth. Else I too can pull shit out of my ass and make it seem viable.

What Are You Hiding?

People can be so readable. To me anyway. I am the type of person who picks up on details of personality and behavior over time through experiencing various people. Whatever they say or do can mean different things as well as reveal things which sometimes they do not intend.

What I really hate is when people give me shit like vague sentences in pathetic attempts to conceal certain details; be it to hide certain information from me or just to put themselves in a better light. It enrages me because I know for a fact that they are not being honest with me, they know they are not being honest with me, and yet they still have the decency to do it in my face. Of course I cannot just turn the tables in their faces so I have to just silently tolerate it and vent my anger elsewhere. These low life scums if ever confronted would just give excuses upon excuses to 'justify' their actions.

I do not have to put up with that kind of shit. It is might fine if you want to do stuff like that to me. Have your fun while it lasts, because it will never work again. Like I said, as hard as one tries, they will never be able to hide their true colors. Eventually more and more people will know. I do not want to be remembered as the bastard who lies. I rather be remembered as the bastard who rather be nasty and straightforward.

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Lookit me! I have nothing to write! So I'm gonna post poems or lyrics to make myself look like I have some sort of appreciation or talent in music/art! Oh yeah I'm so hawt... lawwwwl...

Hey! How about, I use big ass words that were never in my vocabulary in the first place, and I will try to fit them into almost every sentence I can!? That would be like totally cool wouldn't it? Omgomgomg eventhough I don't really know what the word means or its origins, I'm gonna use it anyway, that will make me look so smart! Yeah!

I know! I should mass link to every other site/blog I can to make it look like I am well associated with many people! Yeah! Just like back in friendster and all other online community services! I mean... I don't even know more than half of those people, but I just put them anyways. I guess I can call them friends because I said 'hi' to them before! I am soooo popular gawd....

My friends should come and post dumb ascii art and emotes to show that they have been to my site and have absolutely no brain power to post something coherent and meaningful! Just like me! WoOoOOOoOo I am bad ass... CoS I cAN tYpe Lyk dis... I m all dAtz... I aM sO lYk beTteR tHaN U bUt I gOnNA aCt smth lYk I so mAtuRe liddat d...

Watch Me Busta Rhyme!

You think you've got talent, trying to be poetic and shit
I can't tell it different, from my dinner after I eat
You think its called poetic when they're just lines
Some of those shit don't even rhyme

Why are you blogging it? What are you trying to prove?
Portraying yourself as a tool is hard to remove
Are you trying to impress your so called friends?
See if they are around when the shit hits the fan

Do you even read what your write to yourselves?
To check if they sound write or wrong?
My name is Anthony, you wanna tap some bong?

Its 12:30am and its getting late
Do me a favor don't procreate
I'm just doing this to salt your game
I don't even need to mention your names

So I will say goodbye and goodnight
Ain't looking for trouble or starting a fight
Just saying whats on my mind, I can't ignore
I can't turn an eye blind, not anymore

I R Troll...

So I have been doing my 'once in a while' trolling of blogs that belong to people who know people I know and so on and so forth. Apparently more and more people are having blog these days. Not sure, perhaps it is the 'in' thing that only now locals are starting to adopt. Kind of like that whole 'friendster' trend. Urgh thinking about it and the people that screwed it up.

So people start blogs, post a little, and then leaves it there to rot. I think I have bitched about this before about people posting nonsense in their blogs only to get fed with cliche, templated, subtanceless comments and appraisals by their equally conditioned peers. I am getting good at making new words up. If I could I would request for some of these people which have potential to actually write articles that are deep, thought provoking and even possibilities which could actually broaden the readers' perspectives. Who am I kidding, that will never happen. Kids will be kids.

Speaking of immaturity, it is not just exclusive to adolescents it can be commonly seen as well in people that are legally categorized as 'adults'. Now I am in no way implying that I am very mature and better than the rest of you. However I am able to determine those who are not more mature than me. These people will never improve from their situation as long as they remain satisfied with the fact that they do not care about what goes on other than what affects them. Days ago I have witness live a person who is much older than me but yet has an attitude which I can confidently consider as immature. This person criticizes negative things about almost everybody and anything that comes into conversation. Openly too. Without caring if it is offensive. This person's mentality is obviously "I am right. I know I am right. If you don't like it, I don't care!"

These people will eventually be alone. Even people who genuinely care for them as true friends will get burned out. Oh well... I guess it is good in a sense that their genetics do not get passed on.

Peace Off! Mofo

You do your thing, I do mine. "You do not fuck with me, I do not fuck with you. We have peace that way." Fuck that shit. How about I do not fuck with you if you promise to go fuck yourself and die?

Fuck you people that consider yourselves 'friends' who only stick around when in need. Fuck you people that consider yourselves 'friends' when I am in need and you coincidentally/conveniently have a 'reason' not to help. If your own shit is so much more important than your 'friends', why consider them friends at all when they are not that worth helping in measurement?

What is this kind of 'peace' good for? Absolutely nothing!

Internet Safety

You know how there is a discussion about protecting the kids from the internet? Like setting up filtering systems which blocks out certain websites from being accessed by the kids?

They should create one where it blocks stupid idiotic kids from contributing to the internet. Contaminating and decreasing the total average intelligence in information over the internet should be a crime. It is like pouring liquid shit into a water tank where it goes everywhere causing a filthy mess to all who turn on their tap.

Perhaps making the internet easily accessible by everybody was not such a good idea after all.

Avoidance

I have this habit of avoiding areas which have been visited by people I dislike or hate. I have this mindset where I would rather have as less to do with them as possible which includes internet space. The most recent examples I can give are blogs of people I know. I noticed that they have contaminated the sites I frequent thus leaving me with disgust followed by my loss of interest in going back to those places again. Of course I have no power to control people. So I avoid those places instead. They sicken me. After what they did, they can manage to behave presentable to others who are unaware of such colors they hide. Such is life.

CMMFs

chain mass mailing fuckers.

These retards still exist!? Furthermore I even got sent by one on my non-primary email. It was some shit about this little girl that needs some blood or something that is related to the bone marrow.

1. This shit is old, I got it a few years back.
2. Right at the bottom of the original email, had a CIMB disclaimer statement which indicates that the email is not supposed to be forwarded to anybody else except the original recipient.

Learn to fucking read?

Anyways I hijack the bitch's (who sent me that email) forwarding list and replied to all of them referring to her in particular about how stupid they are forwarding those kind of shit and for their benefit explaining the reasons. I also indicated that the person who mailed me has not communicated with me for a few years now and that she should actually take time to sort out her mailing list. Oh and to stop forwarding stupid chain mails.

If you do not link this article to your friends, you will die a virgin.

Mob Mentality

In the Bible, it tells of how Jesus was wrongly accused and hated so much so that His own people wanted to see Him dead. When Pilate asked the Jews to choose between Jesus or a notorious criminal, deciding who they wanted to set free as it was a custom back then where they let a criminal go free in commemoration with a certain event. They chose the criminal. A person who may have murdered and done many other vicious acts. They chose him over a person whom they saw as a threat to the Jewish believes and teachings. Just to spite Him. Of course there were instigators. They were the pharisees; religious teachers that were considered holy men who followed God's 'law' down to every word.

This is not intended to flame the Jews or the pharisees in anyway. I just want to relate the present day scenario with the past. You may be wondering, "Come on, we are not so uncivilized as to gang up on one person just because he/she is different in ways that are not normal to us". That is where you are wrong. The feeling is there, though the reaction may be different. One of the main reasons why we are 'civilized' as we do not resort to the aforementioned scenario is because such actions are against the law of today. Everyone value their own lives so they react within limitations to the extent that they remain safe. It could range from just maliciously talking behind one's back or even manipulating others to go against a person they hate.

Some people do not see this as a wrong doing. These people might think they performing justice by spread the word about how evil a person is, thinking they are doing others a favor by warning them when ultimately it is their personal dispute and differences with that particular person. Some people know it is wrong, but yet still do it with the same thinking where they must band together to go against a person who is different from them. That person may be inferior or superior. Nevertheless that person will still be seen and treated as different.

I am really disappointed with 'fellow Christians' more than anybody else. To be able to behave that way to your own people, to people who share the same faith as you all. You make Jesus sad! Why do you choose to turn a blind eye? Why do you choose to remain silent? Why do you refuse to get involve in helping a troubled person? Is it the fear of inconvenience? Out of your comfort zone? You are no more use than a gathering of stones. You go to church every Sunday. Why? To show others that you are holy? To show others that you are Christians? Christians who do nothing but let other people know they are Christians? Remember action speaks louder than words. Your actions are your testimonies of yourself. You can claim to be righteous and have not done anything wrong in your entire life. However, what is the sure if you have not helped other? Especially going out of the way to do so? You are no better than anybody else. You could be people from other religion or no religion at all for all I know or care.

Those of you that go to church seeing it as a social gathering where you get to meet up with 'Christian Friends' every weekend. What is preventing you from meeting up wit these people every other time? People who go to church to portray how righteous and good they are and people who actually are gullible enough to believe them.

Then come the sayings. 'Nobody is perfect'. 'Church is for sinners'. Please do not give me that shit. You use it as a cop out to remain the way you are. If you know you but without flaws, then strive to improve on the areas wherever you can in thoughts of it being a blessing to others once achieved. Why keep harping about your flaws and not do anything about it? Do you expect people to accept who you are without improving yourself? Would you accept others for who they are without expecting or helping them change themselves for the better? If you have the mindset of 'I don't mess with him/her, he/she does not mess with me, everything is fine', what are you doing in church? What are you doing calling yourselves Christians? Christians are not just for show or display. It is not a social status which makes you better than the rest. In fact it is a status labeling yourself imperfect and a sinner. One who sincerely desires to be a better person through actions rather than just talk and prayers.

You do not get closer to God by just listening to sermons on weekends, singing songs to God, reading the Bible and praying everyday. Those are just the theory part. If you do not put it into practicality. If you do not use what has been given to you as a privilege, you are of no use to anybody. Not to men, not to God.

The next time a situation occurs where you call yourself a Christian. You should think before considering yourself one.
I am so sick of all of you good for nothing 'Sunday Christians'. You think not using profanities and not having bad thoughts make you pure and righteous? By not helping whenever you have the opportunity to, by not saying something when you have the change to is already evil in itself. A person who does not say anything in hopes of preventing from lying is still dishonest. A person who does not do anything in hopes of not fucking up is still useless. It has come to the extent when I hear people calling themselves Christians, I become more careful of them.

Edifying!

Right. Honestly I cannot remember what exactly that word means. Someone used it on me yesterday. In regards to me speaking my mind about something I do not like.

I hate it when people come up to me and say something like "oh something bad happened to me, it is so bad, it is terrible. Yep very bad." Obviously they want some sort of fucking attention and you just blindly go like "What happened?"

You know what is fucked up? They go like "I am not going to tell you!"
Hey fuck! That is fucking fine with me. If you were not going to tell me in the first place why did you bring that whole shit up in the first place?

So naturally I say to that person there is no point in telling me things halfway and being vague about it as it is also annoying. So that person was not happy to hear what I said and started going on about my words being hurtful this and that as if that person was the only one who had feelings and that everybody was out to hurt that person. Other people are people too! You do not fucking play fucking games with them in hopes of getting their attention and maybe some sugar coated optimistic sayings for whatever the fuck your problems are. If you want proper responses, then tell it properly. If you are going to be retarded about it then you get what you put in.

Then I got some email article thing about people should watch what they say and they should only say nice things. I should? Even when there is not anything nice? Even when what you expect me to say is a complete lie? I am sorry. I just cannot do it. The way how I am implied is like I intentionally use malicious words to hurt and curse people. Why would I want to waste my time doing that?

I am sick of these people that expect nothing but nice'ness in their lives and expect them from people too. You have to make your own 'nice'. Nobody is nice to you for nothing. Especially when you do nothing in the first place. Saying 'hello' and 'goodbye' does not equate you to being nice. Smiling does not make a person nice. This relates back to people claiming to be friends and shit. What have you done for me to call yourself my friend? What have I done for you to consider myself your friend? I do not go around claiming I am somebody's friend unless my actions prove it. True to some 'popular' people I may a very lonely guy but hey that does not bring me down. I cannot stand fake nice people they are everywhere. Some are even 'nice' and 'friendly' as long as you do not burden them with your troubles.

I will not live in a world where everybody is being plastically nice to each other where almost nothing is real. So yeah go fuck yourselves.

Jakun'ness

I am somewhat amused by people who almost never go out of their houses for anything other than meals, school, lessons, compulsory and obligatory events. They are sheltered from the outside world with the highly probable reason of it being dangerous outside. Most of these cases are however often related to well off people. I will not use the term 'rich' because nobody will admit they are rich unless they are really filthy rich. Heck even somebody who is able to get a baby grand on a whim with the sole and oh so compelling reason of wanting to study to be a concert pianist, can say they are not rich. Which is why I do not use the term rich.

These people... *cringes* upon being released from their captivity or habitat tend to make trivial stuff into a 'matter of a fact' deal. You may mistake me for being those people that try to be cool by being unimpressed due to 'been there done that' syndrome but no, I assure you. If I wanted to be cool, you would be able to tell obvious symptoms of an attention depraved person.

Maybe it is us less privilege people that take certain things we have everyday for granted which these well off people never even dreamed of doing. I guess Janis Joplin has a point in singing 'Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose'.
Whatever it is, I hate well off people who have a 'I'm so smart and better than you' attitude. I have never met a person who shows no hint of genuine humility as of yet. If they are not showing off their wealth and going "Oh I'm not rich!" they are trying to show off their knowledge/intellect/skill which money can buy. Either way, product or service, it still sickens me.

Into This World

Finally I have accumulated sufficient hatred and malice to let it out on a blog.
What an anti climax. This will be where I reveal the pure form of negative energy. That is all the warning you are going to get.

Anybody or anything that piss me off enough will be posted here. Somehow this venting anger and frustrations on a blog seems dumb. Well it may seem not to help for me, but my main objective is to let it out on the people I intended to annoy them, offend them, hurt them and maybe... make them cry? Making them wish they never messed with me.

Do not expect logical reasons though I am one who would make my actions justified as much as possible. Basis is for every action there is reaction. Hopefully the more I write here the 'better' I become.